Saturday, February 21, 2009

Why

I just got off the phone w/ my cousin & I was inspired to blog about this conversation.
Since I have about 60 cousins we will just call him/her cousin Y.
::: Ring Ring Ring::: - I Put Enzo Down.
ME - Hello
COUSIN Y - Hey Isha, its Cousin Y.
ME - Hey Couz how are you. I have not heard from you in over a year. Whats been going on?
COUSIN Y - Not Much. You know same crap different day.
:::Enzo Crys:::
COUSIN Y - Is that a Baby? Who's little Rug Rat is that?
ME - :::Laugh:::
ME -Its mine. You didn't know. No one told you.
COUSIN Y -No... No one told me anything.
ME -Well yea... that's my son, his name is Enzo he is a month & 21 Days old.
COUSIN Y -Are you still w/ the father or was it a 1 night stand.
ME -:::STAY QUIET:::
ME -:::MENTAL THOUGHT::: - Is he insinuating I'm a Wh*re?
ME -Ummm... Yea Couz, I am still w/ the father of my son. We are actually getting married at the end of the year.
COUSIN Y -So who is he?
ME -Well his name is Jorge.
COUSIN Y -Is this the same Jorge you were dating when you were in California.
ME -No different Jorge.
COUSIN Y -Nice!
ME -Yea, just my Luck. Funny how thinks work out.
COUSIN Y -Yea.
COUSIN Y -So do you love him or are you just w/ him because of the baby?
ME -What???
COUSIN Y -Yea do you love him
ME - OF COURSE I DO
COUSIN Y -Well I gotta go couz, I have another call coming in.

So this weird A$$ conversation had me thinking. Why would someone that you have not spoken to in over a year whether Family or Friend question your relationship or happiness.
HOW RUDE IS THAT!

So here is an open letter to all the Cousin Y's & all the people who can't just be happy for someone else's happiness.

So here's OUR STORY just in case anyone else would like to talk crap.

I have known my fiance for the last 6yrs. We met at the gym & went out in groups a few times as friends.
2007 & the beginning of 2008 was a pretty rough time for me. I went from having an eating disorder that was making my body deteriorate slowly to having a break-up & break down in the beginning of 2008.

Many thought my life was perfect, because that the facade I painted, though my life was no where near perfect till Jorge & I got together.

After my breakup last March, I went into a small depression that didn't make my eating disorder any better. I went into a major slump and decided I needed to get away from everything. During that time, Jorge came into the picture after I was forced to go to a "Going Away Happy Hour". That even I wore my mask though my pain was seeping through. He tried to get me out of my depression though it was pretty hard when he & the ex both had the same name. LMAO

He started showing up to my house in the mornings w/ Starbuck Coffee & Rice Crispy Treats & then showing up w/ Jamba Juice in the evening after he got out of the gym. He started to annoy me, because he just didn't understand that "I WANTED TO BE LEFT ALONE"
So finally the day came that I was leaving to Italy. Jorge actually took me to the airport & dropped me off. Right before I entered to gate of no return, he gave me the sweetest kiss on my forehead.

After a week of me being in Italy "HE SHOWED UP", He showed up at my grandparents door steps. I was actually in the back w/my goat when he creeped up on me. I remember thinking to myself "I can't believe this guy followed me here". Though I am so glad he did!

Ever since then Jorge & I have been inseparable. He keeps me grounded & alive. He believes in everything I do & supports all my crazy ideas. Mind You... I'm Isha - "I HAVE 100's of Crazy Ideas" & he supports every one of them.
Then one morning I woke w/ him by my side and I realized that I wanted to wake up every morning by his side. I realized that I was in Love. I realized that he is the man I wanted to be with & then I thought to myself... Am I Crazy? I have only been w/ him for a month in a 1/2. Is this real. So I just had to wake him up & tell him this, even if he were to put his clothe on & leave because he thought I was crazy. Though after I explained the whirlwind of emotions that I was feeling, he too felt the same way.
IT WAS PERFECT, WE WERE "IN LOVE" W/ ONE ANOTHER.
We did some traveling and we spent time apart because of work. Then one day I was sick as a dog. I thought I was going to die. He rushed me to the hospital and that's when we found out that
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Which was an absolute Blessing because I was told that I was not able to have children. I guess they were wrong. In September, Jorge proposed & I said yes.
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I honestly can't see my life w/o him. We had a lot of complications w/ the pregnancy though luckily everything turned out great.
So now we fast Forward to 2009. On January 1st, I guess all the New Year Festivities was way to much & I went into labor to give birth to a Healthy & Handsome son.
I am for once really Happy w/ Myself & My Life. These 2 men are the reason I go to sleep & wake up every day w/ a smile on my face.
So for someone to come & question my love & happiness is just incredible.

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